Blogging, The Ultimate Love Hate Relationship!

I think this title says it all for me….

I could apologize for being away for the last five weeks. I could give all kinds of valid reasons like my husband visiting for a month, factual explanations like trips to Copan Ruinas and Utila and even fantastic excuses like I went north because I missed the snow, (yeah right!) for having been away. Or I could simply admit the truth.

I hate Blogger. I hate cyber gremlins. I hate not knowing enough to make these creatures do what I want. I resent the fact that when I go in to do one small thing like add the Follower button (more on that later), the next thing I know the clock is telling me that I’ve been missing in action for the last hour and a half! I resent the fact that I have so many great ideas for small articles, some incredible information for larger full scale articles and probably thousands of photographs that could be featured here but have yet to do anything about it.

I do love to write but will admit that I refuse to have any discipline regarding clocks, schedules, priorities and the like. There are times when the niggling little voices remind me that I’ve been ignoring “Musings & Mutterings”, that I’ve been procrastinating about editing photos or scribbling notes and finally, that I’ve started something here that other folks are interested in (many, many thank you’s to you!) and I’m letting you down by refusing to discipline myself.

I admit that I have no concept of boredom, that there simply aren’t enough hours in the day for everything that I want to do or am interested in learning about. I also admit that I am selfish enough to simply love living alone. I waunder from one task to another, be it cleaning the floors (half the apartment is now clean), cooking a meal (the pork is marinating for chow mein later), doing laundry (okay, it’s sorted and in the bag!) and other sundry mechanics of life.

Living in Honduras for me means that there is always time. Time to watch the rain fall or take pictures of my patio lizard or read a story book; time to natter with friends on FB or write long, caring letters of real communication with friends and family up North; time to take outrageously long walks exploring facets of La Ceiba that most folks don’t see or to stop to have a beer with friends from all walks of life. And especially, there is time to follow up on blogs by other folks in Honduras.

I am envious! Just how do you folks do it?! All of you are involved with immediate and extended families, raising babies or chickens, growing gardens or ministries, living in remote island places or building a home – where and how do you make the time for your blogs?

Yes, I admitted to a deliberate lack of discipline but that also goes hand in hand with procrastination, and the longer you put something off, the easier it is to continue doing so! Throw in another fact of life – I’m leaving in the next couple of days to do a “passport visa stamp” trip to Belize which means I’ll be without my computer for a week. I’m planning to travel really light – spare change of clothes, bathing suit and skirt, tooth brush and camera – and want to be able to go where and when I please if a new place or idea strikes my fancy.

So, that’s my story of love and hate… I’m back and even put up a new photo to prove it but I’m leaving so won’t be posting. Argh, truly the ultimate love-hate relationship!